Friday, November 21, 2008

Out of the running...

for "Momma of the Year". Today was officially Micah and I's worst mother-son morning. He woke up in a great mood and we played before breakfast. But then I didn't give him his signature oatmeal for breakfast and after that things went downhill fast. Real fast. He started pitching a fit and climbing out of his seat. Time seemed to be stopped while he threw himself on the floor at any suggestion I made. He refused to wear a hat or a jacket even though it is freezing outside and he has a runny nose. Somehow I found myself fighting with him...spanking him...raising my voice and stomping my feet. I wont list anything else about our time because I am too embarrassed to tell you about MY childish behavior. Let's just say it involved me hiding out in the garage, praying for God to grant me additional patience. Once I got him in the car kicking a screaming (with no warmth from external layers) he was fine. We pulled up to the bank and I was almost in tears. I felt like the teller could tell what had just transpired and was shaming me. I apologized to Micah and he said it was ok. But I failed miserably at being a good momma today and I needed to confess. I feel better now. It has been 18 mths and I have never gotten so frustrated. I pray its at least another year and a half before we do that again. I can't handle it. Don't worry I am ok now but I just wanted everyone else out there to feel better about their status as "Momma of the Year". You are one step closer now!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I just found your blog through Rachel's and I remember you from PC. Hope you are well; I love the pictures!

The Kimmels said...

your post made me teary eyed! You are definitely still in the running! Everyone has rough days and I can't even imagine how frustrated I would get with a child because I have days when I want to throw my co-workers out the window. We all need to pray for patience...if that helps? love you!

Amy said...

I love you, and you are a wonderful Momma!!! Heck-you're the one that I get advice from on how to be a momma!!

beth ewing said...

well i've never seen you with micah but you were kind of my momma for a summer and i have to say you are honestly one of the most patient and sweet people i know. and i'm not just saying that to make you feel better. we all have bad days. you are still in the running. i promise.